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Every day is a new day. Every day there's new chances to do good and conquer hardships that's what I truly believe. I see Bob and Wade when I can and try to hang out with Jack when I get the chance. My community is amazing and lately I have heard so many great things we've achieved. So many stories I wish I could read all of them. I smiled. Right now I'm spending time with the Grumps and it's great. I love hanging out with them. The Grumps are great. Lately though I feel as things are getting difficult because with every new amount of subscribers that adds more to the people I wish I could talk to. To communicate with my fans however with more people expanding community I keep in mind that it's more people I have reached out to, that I have touched. The Grumps and everyone else welcome me. Aaron and Danny are laughing and making fun of each other like best friends would. Everything feels bright like a small light shinning in the distance. 
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Just when i think im losing i watch a person i admire, when I watch Markiplier i somehow begin to feel okay again.

I first started watching Mark in the end of  December/January 2014-15. I had stumbled onto his dungeon nightmares play-through and I really enjoyed watching it. It was cutting to beginning of January and so I was still at home from school break. I didn’t really expect much but once I started watching I couldn’t stop. I clicked on his channel and I watched my second play-through which was the one with the girl and the camera I forget what it’s called but soon after that it became, misao, ib, prop hunt, outlast, and various others. I have been struggling with depression from a very young age among a few other mental illness issues I deal with on a regular basis and home problems. I didn’t do great in school and I was overwhelmed, I still am overwhelmed a lot of the time about things however whenever I get home or whenever I had wifi I just sit back and watch a video Markiplier posted whether it was recent or not because it gives me something back, It gives me my humanity back and the ability to acknowledge things can get better with time. I’ve attempted many times in the past and I’ve dug myself into a ditch at times but every time i’m lost just with one click I feel okay again. My favorite play-through is prop hunt. I’ve over watched prop hunt around more than fifty times since I began regularly taking notice of mark’s channel. Soon I just tried to look on the bright side but lately it feels very distant. Our house is foreclosing this year and sometimes we have to skip paying a bill in order to have money for other things. We’ve had to skip the heating bill once in the past two-three months. We’re trying to buy a new place but it’s difficult and honestly seeing everyone frustrated and sad and overwhelmed all the time makes me want to give up.

I've been through emotional pain, verbal abuse, physical beatings, bullied, etc but nothing compares to the feelings of hurt I'm currently experiencing. Seeing my family try to stay strong while bickering about how are they suppose to find ways to pay the bills? or how my mother is behind on some of the bills it sickens me. Lately all I can do is cry and try but trying doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel completely okay. Past three weeks in school I've just been snapping at people. I don't purposely set on doing so but I couldn't stop the words created by my own personal frustration come out. I feel useless because i can't wave a wand and magically feel better or make everything perfect for everyone I love and cherish. Today I did what I do everyday I watched Mark and I do what I occasionally do and go into his vlogs there's this one video of him on the verge of tears talking about how he was recently informed of how some of his fans that had been there since the beginning were no longer there. My stomach kinda dropped because before this I've wished lately I wasn't here and I suddenly felt like I owe it to myself and to Mark and my family to stick it out more instead of hiding in bed covers and biting back tears and refusing to ask for help. 

I felt in that moment that it'd be a terrible choice to do and not just because of how Mark reacted to fans who had passed though that did lay with me but because if that was his reaction than what would my family feel or do? If I had gone through with my thoughts? So i decided to say it. Put it out there. While typing this i feel much more calm and it's like a weight has been lifted. I don't expect anyone to listen and i don't want people to pity me but I just felt like saying thank you to whoever reads this. 


Just when i think im losing i watch a person i admire, when I watch Markiplier i somehow begin to feel okay again.

I first started watching Mark in the end of  December/January 2014-15. I had stumbled onto his dungeon nightmares play-through and I really enjoyed watching it. It was cutting to beginning of January and so I was still at home from school break. I didn’t really expect much but once I started watching I couldn’t stop. I clicked on his channel and I watched my second play-through which was the one with the girl and the camera I forget what it’s called but soon after that it became, misao, ib, prop hunt, outlast, and various others. I have been struggling with depression from a very young age among a few other mental illness issues I deal with on a regular basis and home problems. I didn’t do great in school and I was overwhelmed, I still am overwhelmed a lot of the time about things however whenever I get home or whenever I had wifi I just sit back and watch a video Markiplier posted whether it was recent or not because it gives me something back, It gives me my humanity back and the ability to acknowledge things can get better with time. I’ve attempted many times in the past and I’ve dug myself into a ditch at times but every time i’m lost just with one click I feel okay again. My favorite play-through is prop hunt. I’ve over watched prop hunt around more than fifty times since I began regularly taking notice of mark’s channel. Soon I just tried to look on the bright side but lately it feels very distant. Our house is foreclosing this year and sometimes we have to skip paying a bill in order to have money for other things. We’ve had to skip the heating bill once in the past two-three months. We’re trying to buy a new place but it’s difficult and honestly seeing everyone frustrated and sad and overwhelmed all the time makes me want to give up.

I've been through emotional pain, verbal abuse, physical beatings, bullied, etc but nothing compares to the feelings of hurt I'm currently experiencing. Seeing my family try to stay strong while bickering about how are they suppose to find ways to pay the bills? or how my mother is behind on some of the bills it sickens me. Lately all I can do is cry and try but trying doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel completely okay. Past three weeks in school I've just been snapping at people. I don't purposely set on doing so but I couldn't stop the words created by my own personal frustration come out. I feel useless because i can't wave a wand and magically feel better or make everything perfect for everyone I love and cherish. Today I did what I do everyday I watched Mark and I do what I occasionally do and go into his vlogs there's this one video of him on the verge of tears talking about how he was recently informed of how some of his fans that had been there since the beginning were no longer there. My stomach kinda dropped because before this I've wished lately I wasn't here and I suddenly felt like I owe it to myself and to Mark and my family to stick it out more instead of hiding in bed covers and biting back tears and refusing to ask for help. 

I felt in that moment that it'd be a terrible choice to do and not just because of how Mark reacted to fans who had passed though that did lay with me but because if that was his reaction than what would my family feel or do? If I had gone through with my thoughts? So i decided to say it. Put it out there. While typing this i feel much more calm and it's like a weight has been lifted. I don't expect anyone to listen and i don't want people to pity me but I just felt like saying thank you to whoever reads this. 


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Hai I'm Danny and I love reading, photography, and writing stories/fanfiction.

I'm a fan of Markiplier and I wouldn't have been able to smile at times without him.
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UiritasFujoshi Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav!! Blow kiss 
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XBlushiexx Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2016  Hobbyist Photographer
Your welcome ^-^
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Neiot Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello, and welcome to deviantART, where ART meets APPLICATION! :wave:

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